Life is hard right now and I’m having a difficult time. Not easy to admit, but there it is. You see, over a week ago my dad went into the hospital for something relatively harmless (he broke his arm – painful yes, life threatening, no). But he has been in cardiac intensive care ever since because of newly discovered, relatively serious health problems. Add to this an insane workload, a computer crash and the regular craziness of my life and I think it’s fair to admit that things have gotten stressful.
Not one to take myself too seriously though, I don’t want to feel sorry for myself – these things happen, no foul in admitting it, but I’m trying to keep my sense of humour intact and my priorities straight. Priority 1 – making sure my kids are fed, rested and (relatively) clean. Priority 2 – making sure I see/talk to my dad as much as I can, given that I have two little kids and a full time job. Priority 3 – making sure my mom is ok and not alone. Priority 4 – saying hello to my husband at least once a day. Priority 5 – everything else. Oh yes, and priority 6 (hey, at least it’s on the list) – taking care of me. What does this mean? It means continuing with my yoga practice despite a busier schedule. It means eating lots of fruits and veggies, despite the fact that we’re eating out more because of the craziness going on. It means getting a decent amount of sleep even though there don’t seem to be enough hours in the day. It means taking a lot of deep breaths when I’m stressed or upset, which is often when someone you love is sick. It means not beating myself up because I can’t be at the hospital every day and I can’t cook supper every day and I can’t work 60 hours/week, or even 45. It also means not feeling stressed because I haven’t coloured or blogged in about a month. These things happen and when they do some things have to get put on the back burner – even things you love.
But, I know that this is temporary and I know that my dad will be ok, my computer will be fixed and things will go back to normal, whatever that is – well, work will still be crazy, but I like it that way.
Here is an image I coloured a couple of weeks before the proverbial shit hit the fan. Her name is Miss Mirabelle, again by Hannah Lynn. I think she’s the funkiest thing ever and I love how she turned out. She looks strong to me and I think that’s one of the things I’ve learned about myself throughout this crappy situation – I’m resilient and strong and I will get through this, no problem 😉
Skin: E000, E00, E11, R20, C2, C00
Hair: B12, B14, B16, B18, C2, C5, C7, C9
Cltothes: BV000, BV02, BV04, BV17, V05, V06, V09
Wings: A crapload of colours