Is it Spring yet? Or how do you know if you’re heading for a burnout?

Happy Thanksgiving, Happy Halloween, Merry Christmas, Happy New Year, Happy March Break… I think that about sums up all of the holidays/occasions I’ve missed over the past 6 months since my last post.

I don’t even have a good excuse, except life. Yes, let’s go with that, life is my excuse.

Life has a way of flying by without us even realizing what’s happening, and the older you get, the quicker it goes. The speed at which it zooms by can have your head spinning a mile a minute so that before you can say “Calgon, take me awaaaay!” it’s six months later and you feel like you haven’t seen a thing along the way.

Is that how you know it’s time to slow down? Or is it when you wake up each and every morning feeling like you could sleep the whole day and still need a nap? Or is it when you look back and realize that you haven’t had a day off, and I mean a true day off – no work, no kids, no laundry, no dishes, no groceries… no housework. Period. In months. The other day I was telling Doc that I was having trouble motivating myself for exercise, work, healthy eating, life… and she asked me “when was the last time you had a day off? A true day off, all to yourself?” I could not answer her. It has been that long.

You just get so busy, with all of the little things, and all of the big things and before you realize what has happened, you’ve lost yourself somewhere along the way. And something has to happen to make you realize that you have not taken any time to breathe and reconnect to you. In my case it was fatigue, a lack of motivation and a question from Doc, but it could have been something worse, something with bigger and badder consequences (yes, I know, “badder” is not a word).

So, now I’m aware – I need a break – and I’m going to get my husband to take me away for my birthday in April. Just a couple of days somewhere not too far away, so I can wake up when I want, do what I want and have someone serve me all my meals. Heaven. I’ll bring a book and my markers and hubby will no doubt bring some board games. Bliss.

Here’s a card I made for a family member’s birthday, but for today it will serve two purposes: 1) it’s pretty and colourful and reminds me that spring will be here very soon; and 2) it is a birthday card and I’m going to take a little trip for my birthday, so happy birthday to me 🙂

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Her name is Emma and the stamp is called Celebrate Joyfully, by Tiddly Inks, and how appropriate! Life goes fast, celebrate every minute and live in the moment. Take time off once in a while and enjoy the ride.

EBee xox

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New Beginnings

Today is the first day of school for my first baby, 5-year-old D (his birthday is Thursday – Happy Birthday D!). My feelings today have ranged from nervous excitement for him and this new adventure, to pride at what a big boy he is, to fear that he won’t fit in and will have to deal with big meanies, to sadness at how fast he’s growing up and the loss of my baby. It doesn’t feel like very long ago that I held him in my arms and rocked him to sleep, kissed his chubby cheeks, fingers and toes, and buried my nose in the intoxicating smell of the soft hair on his little head.

I blinked and now he’s 5, and school is starting – deep breath for this big step. It’s only the first of many big steps to come and it’s hard for my soft mommy’s heart to see him grow up so fast, and that’s ok. It’s ok because as much as this new beginning is wonderful and exciting, it’s also sad and I’m grieving because my baby is no longer a baby. My heart is full of pride for the person he is turning out to be but it’s also breaking for what has passed – and that deserves to be acknowledged and felt too. So no apologies here.

In honour of D’s first day of school I coloured Back to School Boy by the super talented Krista Smith at Saturated Canary. I love the big smile on his face. It reminds me that change is good and D’s going to be happy and that we’re all going to be ok – even mommy.

Back-to-school Boy

Skin: E000, E00, E21, E11, E04

Hair: E21, E25, E29

Shirt: YG91; YG95; YG97; YG99

Jeans: B91; B95; B99

Apple: R35; R37; R39

EBee xox

 

Back to the Grind and a Colouring Class (or two)

Good day peeps! It would appear that I blinked and the summer is almost over! I keep telling myself that I’ll get better at regularly posting but alas, it appears I’m getting worse! I WILL get better, I promise ;-p

So, it’s Wednesday, August 13 and I’ve just come back to work after two wild weeks of vacation. I actually wrote this on Monday, but work has been crazy so I’m only posting now (I really AM trying). This year’s vacation was one of the most fun vacations I can remember (with the exception of that time in Barbados *sigh*), but probably the least relaxing, lol. With two kids under 5, vacations are not terribly relaxing, but boy can they be fun, and chaotic, and loud!

This year our vacation consisted of the zoo, a parade, the beach, picnics, a rib festival, pool parties, park visits, game days, and (thankfully), a bit of time to colour (big smile here). Yep, during my two weeks off, I was spoiled with two afternoons to myself to do with as I pleased, and it pleased me to colour (surprise). During my free time, I was able to colour a few fun images and even enter a colouring challenge! Yippee!

Inspired by the incredibly talented artist, Copic teacher and master, Alyce Keegan from Kit and Clowder, I coloured this fierce image by Saturated Canary, entitled, Pixie Dust Fairy (she was a freebie, yipeeee!).

Pixie Dust Fairy

I have started taking Alyce’s colouring classes over at Kit and Clowder to try and improve my skills and so far I’m very pleased with my progress – she makes it look easy, and after some (a LOT of) practice, I feel like things are starting to come together. I still have a lot to learn, but it’s a process, so I’m in no rush. For me this is all about fun and creativity, so no stress here. If it takes me a gazillion years to “perfect” my skills, so be it! I’m going to have a blast along the way.

Speaking of having a blast, my good friend, Véronique, and I have begun what we affectionately call our weekly “drunk colouring” evenings. We don’t really get drunk (much), but we do have a blast, colouring together, talking and laughing (lots of laughing). Alone time is nice, but I have to say, it’s a lot of fun to practice my hobby with someone else once in a while 🙂

Anyhoodles, during my free time, I also coloured this cutie, which I entered into a fun hair colouring competition at Kit and Clowder – wish me luck! She’s from my new favourite company, The East Wind, and she’s called Aurora, Spring Butterflies.

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And now, back to the grind.

Ciao peeps!

EBee xox

 

April Showers and May Flowers

Long-time no speak, no? I know it has been a while, but I’ve gotta tell you, April was a rainy whirlwind and here we are, already May! Last month my family was so busy with lots of fun stuff (birthdays, Easter, parties), and some not so fun stuff (ill family members, computer crashes, crazy work schedules), but we made it out of April alive! So far May has also started out rainy and crazy, but I’m optimistic that the sunshine is on its way!

One of the fun things we got to enjoy was a birthday party for my friend’s daughter – a sweet, energetic 7-year-old with beautiful, fiery red hair and a spirit to match. I made this card for her and I call it “Happy Birthday B!” The image is called Spring Bringer (hint hint, Mother Nature), and it’s by Wee Stamps.

I was really missing the vibrancy of spring when I coloured her up so I made her as bright and colourful as possible! I also experimented with a red hair combination because I wanted her to have B’s hair colour. This project was so much fun and seeing it in its new home on my friend’s mantel makes me so happy. Usually the images I colour end up in my copic journal and it’s only recently that I’ve started to put them on cards. It really is rewarding to see how much people appreciate the work, which makes my hobby all the more fun.

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Happy spring, I hope yours is filled with sunshine and lots of colour!

EBee xox

Just Breathe

Life is hard right now and I’m having a difficult time. Not easy to admit, but there it is. You see, over a week ago my dad went into the hospital for something relatively harmless (he broke his arm – painful yes, life threatening, no). But he has been in cardiac intensive care ever since because of newly discovered, relatively serious health problems. Add to this an insane workload, a computer crash and the regular craziness of my life and I think it’s fair to admit that things have gotten stressful.

Not one to take myself too seriously though, I don’t want to feel sorry for myself – these things happen, no foul in admitting it, but I’m trying to keep my sense of humour intact and my priorities straight. Priority 1 – making sure my kids are fed, rested and (relatively) clean. Priority 2 – making sure I see/talk to my dad as much as I can, given that I have two little kids and a full time job. Priority 3 – making sure my mom is ok and not alone. Priority 4 – saying hello to my husband at least once a day. Priority 5 – everything else. Oh yes, and priority 6 (hey, at least it’s on the list) – taking care of me. What does this mean? It means continuing with my yoga practice despite a busier schedule. It means eating lots of fruits and veggies, despite the fact that we’re eating out more because of the craziness going on. It means getting a decent amount of sleep even though there don’t seem to be enough hours in the day. It means taking a lot of deep breaths when I’m stressed or upset, which is often when someone you love is sick. It means not beating myself up because I can’t be at the hospital every day and I can’t cook supper every day and I can’t work 60 hours/week, or even 45. It also means not feeling stressed because I haven’t coloured or blogged in about a month. These things happen and when they do some things have to get put on the back burner – even things you love.

But, I know that this is temporary and I know that my dad will be ok, my computer will be fixed and things will go back to normal, whatever that is – well, work will still be crazy, but I like it that way.

Here is an image I coloured a couple of weeks before the proverbial shit hit the fan. Her name is Miss Mirabelle, again by Hannah Lynn. I think she’s the funkiest thing ever and I love how she turned out. She looks strong to me and I think that’s one of the things I’ve learned about myself throughout this crappy situation – I’m resilient and strong and I will get through this, no problem 😉

Miss Mirabelle_wm

Skin: E000, E00, E11, R20, C2, C00

Hair: B12, B14, B16, B18, C2, C5, C7, C9

Cltothes: BV000, BV02, BV04, BV17, V05, V06, V09

Wings: A crapload of colours

EBee xox